I need a doctor that can help?

i need a doctor to tell me what wrong with me. I dont want to feel so angry any more I dont want to kill my mother(High blood pressure or heart attack) I dont mean to act out the way I do but it just happens. I need help and want help but I dont want to have to be baker acted again to get help. That place is a nightmare. I just want to get better. I dont have a job yet so I dont have any money, my mother can barely keep her house so she has 9 people living in her house. Im going mad. I dont want to spend the rest of my life in and out of mental hospitals. I would be glad to take a pill or hypnotize I just gotta get rid of these feelings of anger and rage. Someone please help me.